It’s Called Babelfish

     Good evening and welcome to another episode of “Fanny and the Looking Glass”  Brought to you in part by Beneficial, Peeps, and Lever 2000- for all of your 2000 parts.  It has now been about 5 months since I last posted a blog and boy has it been something.  Well, I won’t say that the grass has been green, maybe a nice light brownish, gold, and muddy shade of yellow is more like it.  But we move on.  It has been rather crazy around here, and of course, I would rather be mum then to complain.  I think I have done enough complaining already.  For the most part, I have retracted from my family and friends, sheltering myself in a bubble where no one can hurt me any more.  Even sheltering myself from the hubby at times, just so I can breathe.  I started listening to some latin music for a while, and yes, I will continue to do so, but it all depends on my mood. 

     My hubby and cousin have come to the conclusion that I must be bi-polar since my moods change about as frequently as the setting and rising sun.  In the month of love, I changed my pic to a devilish woman with the song Atrevete playing in the background.  Yes, that is how I felt at that time, wanting to be the free spirited person that once roamed the halls of Academic HS.  However, once March stepped in, I reverted back to my normal ways, and found a great song too!  I have been listening to alot more christian rock and trying to keep my hopes as high as possible.  I know that me and the hubby can get through these trials and tribulations and I know that in the end we will succeed and will be better than before.  My patience may wear thin, but my perserverance drives me forward.  Otherwise, life is pretty much the same, with the exception of new friends, and a stronger will to be connected to my sister-in-law.  I know that at first we just didnt get along, but I can bury the hatchet.  Oh yeah, and of course the most exciting part…..On Feb. 16th, I became an auntie!!! My sister in law gave birth to a beautiful baby boy- Daniel Aaron.  I am so proud to be an auntie, and with this little addition, I can say that I am more than happy to become closer friends with my sister in law.  So, in a few words, I can wrap up five months of life.  I still love my husband and will forever and a day, I still have hope for a better and more fulfilling future, and I do plan on owning a llama one day!  A nice llama!!!!!

And so it was that my hair got too long to be manageable.  While most may feel long hair is beautiful, it is a pain…so, yesterday I had a few woman hours and did my hair, and my eyebrows…very cool!  As for the house, well there are always problems, but we are getting by.  The newest dilemma is our crabby next door neighbor who actually called the Board of Health because she claims our hedges are too high…so now we have the Board of Health harassing us to get it cut within ten days, or blah blah blah…I was so p.o’d and so was Jay, I mean honestly, do you really have so little to do in the day, and are you such a nasty bitch that you feel it necessary to call the township on your neighbors.  Well, anyway, now Jay and I are busting our asses to get the hedges down to the length that the Township wants, because our neighbor doesnt like it.  We are still working hard, no new money, and no children yet.  We have a fish , his name is Lucas…and he is our new pet.  Oh and Artemis is on his way, he is our new kitten… my parents are not thrilled about us getting a pet, but whatever.  Cats arent as high maintenance as a pup.  One day, maybe a few years from now, we will have a pup.  Oh, yeah, one more thing- Did you know that a Cria is a baby Llama- and that you can buy a Cria on the internet :)  Ok, now I am done.  Have a great weekend!

Welcome back!  It’s been about a month since I blogged.  I guess it’s just because the last couple of weeks have been extremely overwhelming.  One of my best friends is going through a rocky road in her life, and me and the hubby have been trying to comfort her.  It’s not easy to be going through so much drama at 26!  It seems like everything that could go wrong is going wrong in all of our lives.  Picture four people tacked to a wall, with bulls eye targets on different parts of their bodies.  Now picture debt collectors, law offices,co-workers, and even fellow significant others aiming flaming arrows at those people.  They are just hanging there, waiting for the arrows to fly, no where to run, no way to hide, open to all of it!  That’s how it feels right now.  We are trying to keep an optimistic perspective, marching on with the idea that it can only get better, praying to God for assistance, protection, and the strength to keep going.  It’s very very difficult right now.  But I cannot be pessimistic, because that doesn’t help either.  I am on a 34 week retreat right now, courtesy of my fellow kairos members, and this week is about reflecting on the errors in our lives.  Trying to cope with them and learning from them.  I haven’t read all of it yet, so I may be wrong on the main points, but I will clear it up later.  I was listening to my Ipod every morning and evening for morning and evening prayers, and then last week, the damn thing fell to the ground and split-no more ipod.  Now i have this dinky little shuffle-but it does the job.  It still has music, only i dont have my morning or evening prayers.  That is very upsetting.  It feels like I am missing something now, again.  we haven’t gone back to church-haven’t been in a church for over 2 years-except the two months after I got married when i tried to join the choir.  As you can see, that didn’t last.  I love to sing, but I forgot what i was singing for.  I don’t want to go back to the catholic church.  it is not for me.  I need a more involved, less patriarchal church.  This is not an insult to anyone, so please don’t take it as such, but this institution just isn’t right for me.  I still believe in God (or in a higher being).  It’s some soul searching and spirituality in our lives that me and Jay seek.  that’s what the retreat is all about.  Other than that, life is good.  I love him, he loves me, we have friends, our families are safe and healthy, and we are blessed with steady jobs and a roof over our head.  I would like to leave it at that for now.  I thank God for breathing another day, seeing another day, being able to hear, and walk and talk and use my body…I appreciate all the gifts that we have been blessed with. 

Well, that is my blurb.  I know it may not be too exciting, but if I went into too much detail, I would not stop writing for about 5 days.  And that is just to catch up to date!  Leave me Love!