It's Called Babelfish

Mum is the word

admin — Wed, 21 Mar 2007 11:12:52 +0000

Good evening and welcome to another episode of “Fanny and the Looking Glass” Brought to you in part by Beneficial, Peeps, and Lever 2000- for all of your 2000 parts. It has now been about 5 months since I last posted a blog and boy has it been something. Well, I won’t say that the grass has been green, maybe a nice light brownish, gold, and muddy shade of yellow is more like it. But we move on. It has been rather crazy around here, and of course, I would rather be mum then to complain. I think I have done enough complaining already. For the most part, I have retracted from my family and friends, sheltering myself in a bubble where no one can hurt me any more. Even sheltering myself from the hubby at times, just so I can breathe. I started listening to some latin music for a while, and yes, I will continue to do so, but it all depends on my mood.

My hubby and cousin have come to the conclusion that I must be bi-polar since my moods change about as frequently as the setting and rising sun. In the month of love, I changed my pic to a devilish woman with the song Atrevete playing in the background. Yes, that is how I felt at that time, wanting to be the free spirited person that once roamed the halls of Academic HS. However, once March stepped in, I reverted back to my normal ways, and found a great song too! I have been listening to alot more christian rock and trying to keep my hopes as high as possible. I know that me and the hubby can get through these trials and tribulations and I know that in the end we will succeed and will be better than before. My patience may wear thin, but my perserverance drives me forward. Otherwise, life is pretty much the same, with the exception of new friends, and a stronger will to be connected to my sister-in-law. I know that at first we just didnt get along, but I can bury the hatchet. Oh yeah, and of course the most exciting part…..On Feb. 16th, I became an auntie!!! My sister in law gave birth to a beautiful baby boy- Daniel Aaron. I am so proud to be an auntie, and with this little addition, I can say that I am more than happy to become closer friends with my sister in law. So, in a few words, I can wrap up five months of life. I still love my husband and will forever and a day, I still have hope for a better and more fulfilling future, and I do plan on owning a llama one day! A nice llama!!!!!

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It has been that long!

admin — Mon, 23 Oct 2006 07:49:04 +0000

Its been about 3+ months since my last blog. I guess I should apologize for being MIA so long. Life has been treating me alright, just trying to tread some water.
Well, for those that didn’t know, my husband was out on “commission” for two months- basically, I was the only one bringing in a paycheck. Finally frustrated with his boss’s crap, my hubby stormed out on “vacation” and never went back. That started a fireball in our home. For a brief second we actually knew where we were, and were ready to take life head on, horns high, and feet ready to smash anyone in our way. Unfortunately, after the misshap, we were left with our pants down and staring blankly at the enemy. No matter how much I fought for both us, I couldn’t win the battle. With only one check coming in, our payments went flop yet again, and the phone calls started. It was like a scratched, melted record that refused to stop playing. The only positive out of those two months were Sheryl Crow/John Mayer tickets that had been purchased months in advance. While I was in no mood to listen to people sing and spend money, I refused to give up the tickets, since those two just happen to be my most favoritest singers/song writers on this god given green lawn of mine. :) So we went, and had a phenomenal time. Not only was Sheryl Crow jamming on her guitar, and causing the crowd to go insane, but John Mayer looked absolutely, positively godly that night. His long hair, gorgeous lips and hot bod just strummed that guitar like he was making love, and it was amazing! I was mesmirized and will never forget that concert. Believe me, when he comes back to NJ, I will be in the front row screaming my head off! So, after the concert we went back to our not-so-happy lives and continued to breathe, slowly falling part, but holding on with the ends of our fingertips, hoping that God would throw atleast a string to help us up. As month two rolled around, and the mortgage remained unpaid, I feared we would have to yet again, give it all up. This time, I just couldn’t take it. It was as if the walls were closing in on us, and there was no air to breathe. And then, through the rubbles of our lives, through the dusty fog that had formed, a bright light shone through, and a phone call came in. The most blessed moment- Jay got a job! And not just any job, working for a top advertising firm in the city. It has been 1 month since his new job, and we are finally pulling ourselves out of the rubble. It has been a very tough ride, but I know this time, we will get out of it, I will be damned if that record plays again!
So, appropriately, I changed my site to include the things which are closest to my present moment- John Mayer’s Waiting on the World to change, the Mana quote which I try to live by, and the background. All on the hope that the worse is over, and our lives will change for the better.
I am sorry to all my friends for not communicating with you throughout these last weeks, but when it gets tough, I store all my energy for the war, and this war was a hard one. But I am back, and stepping up to the front again. I love you all.

Oh, and I am down eight pounds 4 ounces and counting!

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Happy-and then again-Not

admin — Sat, 22 Jul 2006 10:37:06 +0000

I haven’t blogged in a while, I guess I have just been too busy at work, and I don’t get much time at home before I knock out from the long day.

The most exciting part of the week for me was yesterday, when I floated home, literally. See, here we are sitting at work at quarter to five, and the rain is pouring down. It had been pouring for a good 3 hours. Thunder, lighting, the works. As we left for the day, I wondered- how bad will the roads be. Well, I turned the bend of my job, and looked ahead of me to see a small creek which had formed where the road used to be. Panic stricken, I looked at my car, then at the water, prayed and slowly but carefully pushed my way through the creek. There were Mac trucks on my right side and back, and they scared the shit out of me, as they plowed through, leaving my car to suck up all their water. Well, we passed what I believed would be the worst of it, Boy was I wrong. As we finished making the turn, I saw that no one else is moving. At this point, it was about 5:45. So I sat, on the only bit of dry land there was, and waited patiently, in hopes that maybe, it was just traffic that jammed up. Finally realizing that something was terribly wrong I walked out of my car and looked ahead of me, only to find that a river had formed in front of us. A river of more than 2 feet of water. Now, I wa petrified. My car cannot possibly pass that, I thought! Let’s recap- I have a 2003 Toyota Matrix. While it rides a little higher than a standard corolla, it most certainly is not an SUV or a truck. I watch as the big Macs plummet into the water and swish their way to dry land-which technically isn’t too far from us, if you don’t count the river. For those who live the Jersey area and travel to Jersey Gardens in Elizabeth, the road I speak of is McClellan St.-which is perpendicular to the road to Jersey Gardens and Ikea. So we wait, and watch as a few brave souls in BMWs and Keas try to make it through. Not knowing if they made it to the other side, or if they are sadly floating in our new lake.

After another hour, the traffic started moving again. I was confident that the worse may have passed, until I saw where the traffic was heading. The cop was slowly directing us towards this river, forcing us to go through it, or spend the rest of the night on the only strip of dry road. I felt my body trembling in fear now, my thoughts racing on the what ifs and the could bes. I made the sign of the cross, as I started to work my way towards the river. I saw two Mac trucks on my right side, who decided to cut me off while I try to tread, and a Ford Truck on my left with his high beams on coming towards me. The only thing I could think was- Oh my god, I am going to buoy and flip. Slowly I pressed on my accelerator, listening to the engine roar and feeling the vibration of those two trucks as they plummet through without any consideration of what could happen to me. As I go through the river, I can see the water cover the hood of my car, and hear the swish of the water at my side doors. I keep praying and singing “just keep swimming, just keep swimming” and I continued to press the accelerator. It felt like an eternity, like I would never get out, and then, it was over, my car was back on dry land and I felt a tear drop on the side of my face. For a moment, I heard cheering from the back seat, a sweet hurray, and then I moved on. I looked around me to see about 15 cars that had not made it through the ordeal, and were sitting abandoned on the road side, waiting for help. And one car that was floating, like the buoy I thought I would be, which we had to gear around in order to get out. I smiled proudly and patted the dashboard on my vehicle, “Good nunuta,” Nuna Uta is arabic for little kitten. My little kitten had made it through another rough season of water and snow, and came up roaring in satisfaction. I made it home at around 7:30- tired, wet and ready for bed. Mother nature had tried to tackle me down, but I had surpassed the worst, and I was happy.

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Abuelita Emilia Sanchez R.I.P. 6/10/2006

admin — Mon, 12 Jun 2006 08:01:29 +0000

I want to take a few moments to remember how wonderful my grandmother was. At 92 years old, she still laughed and wanted to be a full time part of our family. She was and will continue to be the center of our home. In Ecuador, though far from me, she influenced and raised over 4 generations of children, giving advice, love and companionship to all around her. She is an inspiration to all. In my heart, the one thing I could have asked for was to hug her one last time, say “I love you grandma” one last time, and tell her that she means the world to me. But, as they say, life goes by very fast, and if you can’t stop to smell the roses, one day, they will wilt and wither. I will forever miss my grandmother and will remember all the wonderful times we spent together. I only hope that when my times comes, I will be able to join her once again.

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Poison Ivy, Poison Sumac, Oatmeal and Llamas!

admin — Fri, 26 May 2006 12:40:48 +0000

Ok, so me and the hubby have been working out in the yard for two weeks now, trying to make our hedges look immaculate. For two weeks, afternoon, and evening, i have been crawling through hedges, tying up tree branches, shoveling grass into leaf bags, always wearing my gloves and jeans, and a tshirt, cause it’s hot out there. Well, little to my dismay, would i have realized that intertwining withn my uncombed hedges were two of the most evil plants in the world! They glistened in the sunlight and i was mesmirized. I was enthralled by their beautiful leaves and strong sturdy vines. I thought “hey, that vine would make the best bundling twine!” So eager to bundle, I kept grabbing the vine and designated long strips to my bundles. Happily, i plucked the leaves off, pulled them to make sure they would hold and bundles my twigs and branches, smiling every time my bundle was done. I was doing good, I bundled about 15 groups of branches, and i was happy. And now I pay. Now i have blisters and bumps all over my arms…the result of poison ivy and sumac. I am at work, with Topical poison ivy cream all over my arms, a nice shade of pink that makes me look like i rolled around in a bath of pepto bismol. i had to put on a sweater to cover the blotches so i could help the customers. 80 degrees and i have a sweater on, i look like a nut! That’s what happens when you try to make house chores fun!

On a happier note, we just got two children, kittens. I love cats and they are very independent, they are set up in their corral with food and water, milk and kitty litter, toys and boxes to play in. They are so adorable: Deuce and *i havent figured out his name yet* Deuce is a black cat with blue eyes and the other one is striped, with black patches and blue eyes as well.

And now, the part that every one waits for:

Fanny’s Fun Llama Fact

Llamas can carry about a quarter of their body weight, so a 400-pound male llama can carry about 100 pounds on a trek of 10 to 12 miles with no problem.

Who needs a moving truck, just strap a mattress to your llama and you will be set!

Everyone have a great memorial day weekend!

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Haircut-Hedges and more Llamas

admin — Fri, 19 May 2006 15:46:12 +0000

And so it was that my hair got too long to be manageable. While most may feel long hair is beautiful, it is a pain…so, yesterday I had a few woman hours and did my hair, and my eyebrows…very cool! As for the house, well there are always problems, but we are getting by. The newest dilemma is our crabby next door neighbor who actually called the Board of Health because she claims our hedges are too high…so now we have the Board of Health harassing us to get it cut within ten days, or blah blah blah…I was so p.o’d and so was Jay, I mean honestly, do you really have so little to do in the day, and are you such a nasty bitch that you feel it necessary to call the township on your neighbors. Well, anyway, now Jay and I are busting our asses to get the hedges down to the length that the Township wants, because our neighbor doesnt like it. We are still working hard, no new money, and no children yet. We have a fish , his name is Lucas…and he is our new pet. Oh and Artemis is on his way, he is our new kitten… my parents are not thrilled about us getting a pet, but whatever. Cats arent as high maintenance as a pup. One day, maybe a few years from now, we will have a pup. Oh, yeah, one more thing- Did you know that a Cria is a baby Llama- and that you can buy a Cria on the internet :) Ok, now I am done. Have a great weekend!

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A word from our sponsor - and Llamas!

admin — Wed, 03 May 2006 15:18:40 +0000

Welcome back! It’s been about a month since I blogged. I guess it’s just because the last couple of weeks have been extremely overwhelming. One of my best friends is going through a rocky road in her life, and me and the hubby have been trying to comfort her. It’s not easy to be going through so much drama at 26! It seems like everything that could go wrong is going wrong in all of our lives. Picture four people tacked to a wall, with bulls eye targets on different parts of their bodies. Now picture debt collectors, law offices,co-workers, and even fellow significant others aiming flaming arrows at those people. They are just hanging there, waiting for the arrows to fly, no where to run, no way to hide, open to all of it! That’s how it feels right now. We are trying to keep an optimistic perspective, marching on with the idea that it can only get better, praying to God for assistance, protection, and the strength to keep going. It’s very very difficult right now. But I cannot be pessimistic, because that doesn’t help either. I am on a 34 week retreat right now, courtesy of my fellow kairos members, and this week is about reflecting on the errors in our lives. Trying to cope with them and learning from them. I haven’t read all of it yet, so I may be wrong on the main points, but I will clear it up later. I was listening to my Ipod every morning and evening for morning and evening prayers, and then last week, the damn thing fell to the ground and split-no more ipod. Now i have this dinky little shuffle-but it does the job. It still has music, only i dont have my morning or evening prayers. That is very upsetting. It feels like I am missing something now, again. we haven’t gone back to church-haven’t been in a church for over 2 years-except the two months after I got married when i tried to join the choir. As you can see, that didn’t last. I love to sing, but I forgot what i was singing for. I don’t want to go back to the catholic church. it is not for me. I need a more involved, less patriarchal church. This is not an insult to anyone, so please don’t take it as such, but this institution just isn’t right for me. I still believe in God (or in a higher being). It’s some soul searching and spirituality in our lives that me and Jay seek. that’s what the retreat is all about. Other than that, life is good. I love him, he loves me, we have friends, our families are safe and healthy, and we are blessed with steady jobs and a roof over our head. I would like to leave it at that for now. I thank God for breathing another day, seeing another day, being able to hear, and walk and talk and use my body…I appreciate all the gifts that we have been blessed with.

Well, that is my blurb. I know it may not be too exciting, but if I went into too much detail, I would not stop writing for about 5 days. And that is just to catch up to date! Leave me Love!

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Ok-The ride is over- can I please Get OFF!!!!

admin — Thu, 16 Feb 2006 14:02:11 +0000

This rollercoaster, which we call LIFE, has been rolling me through topsies, turvies, twisties, turnies, upsidownsies, and all around! I am nauseous, I am tired, I am hurting, and frankly…I just want to get OFF the damn ride! I thought that marriage would be just a tad bit less difficult. I never expected it to be a walk in the park, or a fairytale in the making, but come on—just one day of peace would be wonderful. There are so many problems, and I mean outside of Me and Jay. We dont fight too much…well…not enough to cause absolute grief. It’s the mortgage and the light, and the gas, and the water, and the car, and the tv and the internet, and the credit card bills and the list just goes on forever! And my hands hurt from tearing them up- well we cannot afford to pay it! Then there are the health problems-in between me and my slew of physical problems, and jay and his slew of physical problems, we make up one 80 year old man. All I am missing is the walker, and Jay is missing the cane. Everyday, it’s just another notch on the list. It’s very hard to smile or see the light in the tunnel. At this point, the only thing left is for the roof to come tumbling in. *looking up* please dont do it!

After the car accident, I realized that I would never be able to lift anything, or do any physically demanding job, because the pain that radiates from my actions is unbearable. And if my friend keeps being a bitch, I won’t ever be able to have children. Jay needs to quit his job because it has become absolutely unbearable and a health risk. All this adds to our debt aggrivations. Please let me get off !

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A hopeless effort

admin — Fri, 03 Feb 2006 10:32:41 +0000

After sitting at this desk for 9 hours a day, 5 days a week, 4 weeks a month, 12 months a year, I came to an ugly realization. There is no future here. And I didn’t get any shoes!!!!!!! Gosh darnit!!! Every year the shoe truck comes to the terminal, to give out shoes to the employees at the terminal, those people who work out in the field and work with the people that work in the field. Last year I got a SWEET pair of black leather boots with steel toes. They were beautiful. Perfect, even. I wear them all the time, because they are comfortable, they fit me, and they were FREE! Well, today the shoe truck comes again, and I was like… Yay, I get more FREE shoes, since I never buy shoes because we dont have much money to spare, and all the extra cash goes to my husband. :p So, I come in with my clean socks, feet nice and purrty, waiting to try on these shoes, and I get told, “You aren’t on the list for shoes!” I was like, “Illl!!” Whatever do you mean, I get shoes! I did last year!!! It just isn’t fair! Oh, and being in this department and this company, I will never be anything more than a “administrative assistant” because it is a penis oriented society down here, and us women get no respect! I guess I will just go home shoeless this year.

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Resolution coming through :) Yay!!!!

admin — Thu, 02 Feb 2006 16:30:49 +0000

Oh My Goodness!!! I weighed myself this morning…I am 4 pounds less as of February 1st. Cool!!!! My goal was 5, But what the hell!!!! I did 4. Now, I just have to be more active, and i could lose more! But I did say my goal was to lose 5 pounds a month…so I will keep striving…it may take me a while, but i will get there! So wooohoo to me!

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