It’s Called Babelfish

This rollercoaster, which we call LIFE, has been rolling me through topsies, turvies, twisties, turnies, upsidownsies, and all around!  I am nauseous, I am tired, I am hurting, and frankly…I just want to get OFF the damn ride!  I thought that marriage would be just a tad bit less difficult.  I never expected it to be a walk in the park, or a fairytale in the making, but come on—just one day of peace would be wonderful.  There are so many problems, and I mean outside of Me and Jay.  We dont fight too much…well…not enough to cause absolute grief.  It’s the mortgage and the light, and the gas, and the water, and the car, and the tv and the internet, and the credit card bills and the list just goes on forever!  And my hands hurt from tearing them up- well we cannot afford to pay it!  Then there are the health problems-in between me and my slew of physical problems, and jay and his slew of physical problems, we make up one 80 year old man.  All I am missing is the walker, and Jay is missing the cane.  Everyday, it’s just another notch on the list.  It’s very hard to smile or see the light in the tunnel.  At this point, the only thing left is for the roof to come tumbling in.  *looking up* please dont do it! 

After the car accident, I realized that I would never be able to lift anything, or do any physically demanding job, because the pain that radiates from my actions is unbearable.  And if my friend keeps being a bitch, I won’t ever be able to have children.  Jay needs to quit his job because it has become absolutely unbearable and a health risk.  All this adds to our debt aggrivations.  Please let me get off ! 

After sitting at this desk for 9 hours a day, 5 days a week, 4 weeks a month, 12 months a year, I came to an ugly realization.  There is no future here.  And I didn’t get any shoes!!!!!!!  Gosh darnit!!!  Every year the shoe truck comes to the terminal, to give out shoes to the employees at the terminal, those people who work out in the field and work with the people that work in the field.  Last year I got a SWEET pair of black leather boots with steel toes.  They were beautiful.  Perfect, even.  I wear them all the time, because they are comfortable, they fit me, and they were FREE!  Well, today the shoe truck comes again, and I was like… Yay, I get more FREE shoes, since I never buy shoes because we dont have much money to spare, and all the extra cash goes to my husband. :p  So, I come in with my clean socks, feet nice and purrty, waiting to try on these shoes, and I get told, “You aren’t on the list for shoes!”  I was like, “Illl!!”  Whatever do you mean, I get shoes!  I did last year!!! It just isn’t fair!  Oh, and being in this department and this company, I will never be anything more than a “administrative assistant” because it is a penis oriented society down here, and us women get no respect!  I guess I will just go home shoeless this year. 

Oh My Goodness!!!  I weighed myself this morning…I am 4 pounds less as of February 1st.  Cool!!!!  My goal was 5, But what the hell!!!! I did 4. Now, I just have to be more active, and i could lose more!  But I did say my goal was to lose 5 pounds a month…so I will keep striving…it may take me a while, but i will get there!  So wooohoo to me!